Hope.
The prospect of something good.
They werent giving me too much of that anymore.
Im not sure how that made me feel. I hadnt woken up since itd happened, so I guess it hadnt really sunken in yet.
I wouldnt say I was old, and I wouldnt say I was that much of a bad person either. I mean, nobodys perfect, but I dont think that I deserved getting dealt such a shit hand. A bad day, fine. Dead pet, never mind.
A mishap in the operating room?
When this was meant to be a minor procedure?
Something that you cant recover from?
Who can you say honestly deserves that?
I never t
It didn't take him long to figure out he was in the boot of a car.
Stipes was used to it.
Part of the metaphorical job description.
It didn't worry him at all that he had no idea where he was being taken; this was also, often the case in his line of work.
What was stressing him out was that he had a bit of a blank in his recent memory.
That was new…and it didn't spell anything good.
He ran through what he did know in his mind.
He had been on the plane.
He remembered getting off of the plane.
He
You Know What You Have To Do. by carrotgurl, literature
Literature
You Know What You Have To Do.
Blood can be graceful sometimes.
Like when it's floating through water.
Like it was doing now in front of Peter's face.
It snaked its way through the cold water like smoke, and drifted towards the surface.
Peter watched it and stared where it stopped, at the reflection of someone in the water with him.
It took him a moment to remember that he was looking at himself.
If he hadn't been under the water, he'd have started laughing at his situation.
He didn't even know who he was anymore…
He'd had so many hosts he didn't even know where he was now, who he was, what he was doing.
He started to remind himself.
Stephen was dead.
'Peter Let This Happen.' by carrotgurl, literature
Literature
'Peter Let This Happen.'
"They pulled out all of his teeth." Said Quinton quietly to himself, looking closely at the limp head.
"…While he was still alive."
The sense of awe in Quinton's voice was starting to annoy Evans, who was still finding it difficult to breathe slightly.
"They must've been here for hours," Quinton said standing up straight. "They really worked him over."
He looked over to Evans on hearing a pained heavy sigh.
"What?"
"We should've been here earlier. We should've been here to stop this happening in the first place."
Quinton turned to face Evans properly; he was cocking his head listening to him, watching him still hold his side in pain.
Evans bolted up the stairs two at a time. He pushed the already open door to the flat.
The lock was damaged. There were faint smears of blood in the corridor by the door.
This spelled trouble.
He went past the kitchen first.
Mess.
More blood.
He pushed the door to the living room open slowly.
There was a disfigured body tied to a wooden chair.
Total mutilation.
And at it's feet, a man, Peter, on his knees. Rocking.
Evans needn't have asked who it used to be in the chair.
They were too late.
The last time this had happened had been over 150 years ago, and that was because there were too many
There was something wrong about the contents of the fridge.
Robert didn't pride himself on noticing little details, but he couldn't stand the thought that someone had been through his things.
He distinctly remembered the cheese being label down, and the milk not being as full as that.
He rubbed his eyes.
Maybe his age was just catching up with him.
It was probably nothing.
He went into the bedroom. He just needed sleep. It had been a long day.
All these employees having to face divorces and problems on topside caused long shifts for those that were able to balance Meta and topside.
He hated this time of year.
He hung up his white coa
"That's it." Stevens told himself as he walked through his office door. It closed heavily behind him.
"That's it." He repeated, stopping in the middle of the room.
He stared ahead emptily. His desk sat in a complete mess of unfinished and half read reports. There were piles of all sorts of forms, and the legal documents his work entailed. Oh the joy of being a level 7.
He turned to his left and rummaged around in the fridge, eventually pulling out a parcel. He untied the string and put the wrapping back in the fridge.
The cool metal soothed his hand.
"You've never looked so friendly." He said quietly.
He pulled back the slide and took
The only sound filling the stale air was of Liam's hard breathing.
He pushed himself up against the wall of the corridor, attempting to get up, but the piercing pain pinned him back down again.
Through the sound of a racing pulse in his ears he heard inevitable footsteps approach him.
He opened his eyes from his foetal position on the floor, and stared at his reflection in the shoes facing him.
He turned onto his back slowly to see the face of the man.
"How did you find me?"
"Do you really need to ask?"
Liam tried to get up, and managed to lean against the wall, but clenched his eyes in pain.
"Is that really necessary?"
"Where is s
"No! Please, don't! I promise, I promise!"
"What are you doing?"
Michael Evans, 37 with dark hair, greying at the temples, quite tall, with a neutral clean-shaven face, had walked in on Jimmy Folds cowering alone in the corner of his basement apartment. Jimmy quickly got up, his knees evidently a bit weak, his hands and digits, unable to keep still, in a constant flurry of fidgeting and twitching. Evans picked up Jimmy's thick glasses from the desk, which at first seemed to be cracked, but as Evans held them out, he realised they were not. Jimmy stared at the glasses and then Evans, and seemed quite troubled. He snatched them in a stutter o
The only sound filling the stale air was of Liam's hard breathing.
He pushed himself up against the wall of the corridor, attempting to get up, but the piercing pain pinned him back down again.
Through the sound of a racing pulse in his ears he heard inevitable footsteps approach him.
He opened his eyes from his foetal position on the floor, and stared at his reflection in the shoes facing him.
He turned onto his back slowly to see the face of the man.
"How did you find me?"
"Do you really need to ask?"
Liam tried to get up, and managed to lean against the wall, but clenched his eyes in pain.
"Is that really necessary?"
"Where is s
"That's it." Stevens told himself as he walked through his office door. It closed heavily behind him.
"That's it." He repeated, stopping in the middle of the room.
He stared ahead emptily. His desk sat in a complete mess of unfinished and half read reports. There were piles of all sorts of forms, and the legal documents his work entailed. Oh the joy of being a level 7.
He turned to his left and rummaged around in the fridge, eventually pulling out a parcel. He untied the string and put the wrapping back in the fridge.
The cool metal soothed his hand.
"You've never looked so friendly." He said quietly.
He pulled back the slide and took
There was something wrong about the contents of the fridge.
Robert didn't pride himself on noticing little details, but he couldn't stand the thought that someone had been through his things.
He distinctly remembered the cheese being label down, and the milk not being as full as that.
He rubbed his eyes.
Maybe his age was just catching up with him.
It was probably nothing.
He went into the bedroom. He just needed sleep. It had been a long day.
All these employees having to face divorces and problems on topside caused long shifts for those that were able to balance Meta and topside.
He hated this time of year.
He hung up his white coa
Evans bolted up the stairs two at a time. He pushed the already open door to the flat.
The lock was damaged. There were faint smears of blood in the corridor by the door.
This spelled trouble.
He went past the kitchen first.
Mess.
More blood.
He pushed the door to the living room open slowly.
There was a disfigured body tied to a wooden chair.
Total mutilation.
And at it's feet, a man, Peter, on his knees. Rocking.
Evans needn't have asked who it used to be in the chair.
They were too late.
The last time this had happened had been over 150 years ago, and that was because there were too many
'Peter Let This Happen.' by carrotgurl, literature
Literature
'Peter Let This Happen.'
"They pulled out all of his teeth." Said Quinton quietly to himself, looking closely at the limp head.
"…While he was still alive."
The sense of awe in Quinton's voice was starting to annoy Evans, who was still finding it difficult to breathe slightly.
"They must've been here for hours," Quinton said standing up straight. "They really worked him over."
He looked over to Evans on hearing a pained heavy sigh.
"What?"
"We should've been here earlier. We should've been here to stop this happening in the first place."
Quinton turned to face Evans properly; he was cocking his head listening to him, watching him still hold his side in pain.
You Know What You Have To Do. by carrotgurl, literature
Literature
You Know What You Have To Do.
Blood can be graceful sometimes.
Like when it's floating through water.
Like it was doing now in front of Peter's face.
It snaked its way through the cold water like smoke, and drifted towards the surface.
Peter watched it and stared where it stopped, at the reflection of someone in the water with him.
It took him a moment to remember that he was looking at himself.
If he hadn't been under the water, he'd have started laughing at his situation.
He didn't even know who he was anymore…
He'd had so many hosts he didn't even know where he was now, who he was, what he was doing.
He started to remind himself.
Stephen was dead.
It didn't take him long to figure out he was in the boot of a car.
Stipes was used to it.
Part of the metaphorical job description.
It didn't worry him at all that he had no idea where he was being taken; this was also, often the case in his line of work.
What was stressing him out was that he had a bit of a blank in his recent memory.
That was new…and it didn't spell anything good.
He ran through what he did know in his mind.
He had been on the plane.
He remembered getting off of the plane.
He
Current Residence: London, UK Favourite genre of music: Most types of rock, industrial and alternative. Favourite cartoon character: Gir, Dexter, Pocoyo Personal Quote: Life is unfair. Kill yourself or get over it.
Favourite Movies
Amelie, Fight Club, The Producers
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Too many to list, but Muse rules all.
Favourite Writers
Philip K Dick, Martin Amis, Robert Harris, Owen Wilson
Tools of the Trade
A high imagination, and the ability to begin to attempt to write it all down.
Matt Haig’s book “The Last Family in England” is perhaps the best book I’ve ever read. I finished reading it the other day and I don’t believe a book has ever affected me to this extent before. It’s not just that it made me cry because of the ending (more than I've ever cried at a book before), or the fact that you know nothing is really resolved at the end, it honestly affected me, and really made me think things over. I know it sounds stupid, and I can’t seem to explain it to anyone, so maybe I should be keeping it secret, but I think it was so…like…I felt like I hit a bit of a milestone after re
Yes, it has been nearly yet another month since I've updated this stupid thing, but it's alright because it's just a stupid journal that's...well at the end of the day it's just pixels on a screen isn't it?
Alot's happened since I last wrote yadda yadda, but the main reason I've decided to finally start writing on here again is because I'm feeling stupidly stressed out at the moment, and ironically (or at least what I thought to be irony until my all-seeing all-knowing friend told me in an (what I hope) unintentionally pretentious tone that what I thought was irony was actually the incorrect definition that Americans are always using, but th
Once again I've left my journal for over a month sans entry, so here I am in a lame attempt to rectify this.
Somehow I'm not quite feeling the journal mood, but I'm pushing myself to write because I convinced myself earlier that I had several things to write about. Whether I actually get around to writing about all of these, I am le not sure, but here goes anyway.
For all those of you who haven't heard from me since my last journal, and who might have been worried about my health, and doctor's visit, don't be. I went to see the doctor and it turned out what I had was "pityriasis rosea" or something like that, which is a harmless non-contagi